Let the waters rise

James 1:2

A few weeks back I sang this song at my dads church, I didn't know then what it would mean to me standing here today.  A week after I sang it, I got a phone call from my mother telling me that she was rushing my dad to the ER and that he had very suddenly lost his short term memory.  that first day all we knew was it was bad and I was contemplating the possibility that my dad may never be the same and although he was alive, I might have already lost him. Imagining my life with out the ability to call him up and share what God showed me from his word or what my kids did that day...my heart was broken.  For the next four days we were on a roller coaster ride of emotions, hearing conflicting reports as to what was going on.  He regained his memory, but they said that he might have had a stoke and he also had some heart problems.  He went home on Thursday and the following Monday I was rejoicing in Gods protection and we thought it was over.  The twins were born that day and it just seamed like we were back on the mountain top.  Then Caroline (my new niece, one of the twins,) took a turn for the worse and they were talking about moving her to West palm. We didn't know if everything was going to be ok with her or not and I found myself once again just holding on to The Lord and trusting him based on my past experience of his faithfulness and the truth of his promises.  John had preached a sermon on James 1 and he kept reminding me of its truth and we moved forward and saw God heal Caroline and ultimately bring her home!  They came home exactly one week after my dad came home from the hospital!  I had planned to sing this song last week but I didn't, the next day (to make a long story short) my dad was airlifted back to the hospital with an unknown infection and his heart was dropping and the speeding up over and over and he was blacking out.  So at 2 o'clock in the morning I was in the car taking my mom up to Gainesville to be with him.  He spent another couple of days in the hospital and he is home now but he will be on a heart monitor and a blood thinner for the next thirty days.  So he is better but not all the way.  This song means so much to me because it it what I have been living for the past month and clinging to the truth found in it and I hope that it is as much a blessing to you as it has been to me.

Don't know where to begin

Its like my world's caving in

And I try but I can't control my fear

Where do I go from here?

sometimes its so hard to pray

When You feel so far away

But I am willing to go

Where you want me to

God, I trust You

There's a raging sea 

Right in front of me

Wants to pull me in

Bring me to my knees

So let the waters rise

If You want them to 

I will follow You

I will follow You

I will follow You

I will swim in the deep

'Cuz You'll be next to me

You're in the eye of the storm

And the calm of the sea

You're never out of reach

God, You know where I've been

You were there with me then

You were faithful before

You'll be faithful again

I'm holding Your hand

There's a raging sea 

Right in front of me

Wants to pull me in

Bring me to my knees

So let the waters rise

If You want them to 

I will follow You

I will follow You

I will follow You

God Your love is enough

You will pull me through

I'm holding onto You

God Your love is enough

I will follow You

I will follow You

There's a raging sea 

Right in front of me

Wants to pull me in

Bring me to my knees

So let the waters rise

If You want them to 

I will follow You

I will follow You

I will follow You

This is it!:

Today begins day three of our second year of homeschooling.  I know I should have started writing about it three days ago, but I've been more than a little bit busy, and unusually wordless.  For those who know me personally, that fact is debatable, however, my ability to talk "the hind leg off a mule"and my ability to translate that particular talent to paper (or in this case blog) is a different story altogether.
John, my husband of nearly ten years, traveled out of down on business, driving to the airport in the middle of a tropical storm on day one of school.  (He's so brave!) So, naturally,in my "free time"  I have been taring the house apart and putting it back together in an attempt to not only make our little house and the always to much stuff in it, work for our life, but also to keep from missing him so much.  I have considered living vicariously through the dog.  She demonstrates her displeasure at being alone by ripping an entire roll of paper towels to shreds all over my toy room/school room/porch.  (every room in our home serves multiple purposes). But, since I don't want to get beat down by the proverbial newspaper roll, I have found other, more productive ways to spend my time.  the living room is now clean and the furniture re-arranged, as is our bedroom.  The kitchen sink as been full constantly since he left because I have been too busy, no, actually, that is a lie, it's been that way because I haven't wanted to do much dishes.  I have to tackle that today....ok I digress. 

Anyway, school is going well.  Johnny boy is on 3rd grade now, Kaitlyn in 1st. Time rushes past and I reflect on the life I've been given, and my heart swells with humility and joy.  My kids continue to amaze me.  They both have grown into fascinating people.  I love them, respect them, and admire them so much.  I believe they teach me far more every day then I could possibly teach them.  

Homeschooling provides opportunity.  Here in this town, the homeschooling community is huge and there is always something going on within it.  My kids are exposed to what is good for them, yet protected from things and or people that could be a constant source of negative influence in their life.  They are more social now then they would be in school because the time they spend with others isn't just spent in a classroom.  And their friends are actually friends not just people they are trapped in a classroom with.  It's a beautiful thing, my kids are happy and secure and they want to be homeschooling.  Bottom line? It works for us! 

I'm really looking forward to this year!  John is still doing seminary classes online, so my nights will be spent getting ready for school the next office or cleaning or relaxing.  My goalies to take everything in stride.  This is it. The end of my rambling. I'm done for te day. Bye :)